Long Days and Nights

I ran a call the other day that had me thinking. A young lady had destroyed her liver by her own actions. As I transported her and her mother I was torn. Do I let myself feel apathy for the patient because her own life choices caused her liver's destruction that is now going to be paid for with my tax dollars, or do I embrace the compassion for the mother who now has to raise a grandchild when her daughter dies. I'm so new to this profession that I find it hard to believe that I am already feeling apathy, or anger, for those who abuse our tax dollars with things that could have been prevented if they only gave a damn about their own lives.